Pappy
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Omfg what a day. Why cant things go my way at least once? Sorry for being a little selfish, God, dont fucking help anybody out or anything. Ehh. Whatever. Another day of my life ill never get back. However stella showed some sembalence of liking me by laughing at me when i made faces. Still. Shitty day. Sex sucks. Dont ever have sex bc it will ruin and run your life. You can take that to the bank. On a lighter note, im smoking! Ahhh quit yer bitching. Fuckstickbastardassneedledickassstainknobgoblindicksmooch extraordanaire!
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Shoot me dead
Just because i said so. Maybe it will put an end to the awful pain you cause in the crater that was my heart. Or maybe not. Maybe it will be like sleeping. All i feel is the darkness surrounding me. And when i wake up, it is like being sucked away from the darkness only to be born again.
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being a dad so far,
is quite possibly the only thing worth mentioning in my life that has the most amount of significance. i feel so different. not that im a giant wuss or anything, or that im one of those people who wants to shake their child. more like, i feel right. i feel worthwhile, and very much needed. i think she is gonna be my project for life. like my psp hacking, or my ipod touch hacking, or my ds hacking, or my 360 hacking, or iphone hacking, or computer hacking. hahaha soo many projects that really mean nothing compared to this one. im not saying this bc im her father, but she is beautiful. and im glad she isnt an alien child or an old person that shrunk lol. most infants do look like old people. not mine. very beautiful, just like her mother. i dont think, no,i know i have never been happier in my life. she was looking at me last night, and i just looked right back. stella nor i did anything aside from stare at each other for awhile. and it was the most fun ive had in the almost 4 days in the hospital(read:prison). i feel so right. of all the things i can do, and have done, i think this is the best one. i love my daughter with all of my being. nothing will change that! well. enough blogging for me. hazaa.
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apps these days
if i paid for them, i would have like 4. as it stands i have 70. free is always better.
